A New Novel, Part 284 I Have the Surety the Demon Gave You

15 July 2011, A New Novel, Part 284 I Have the Surety the Demon Gave You

For those who haven’t been following this blog, let me introduce it a little. I am currently blogging my 21st novel that has the working title Daemon. The novel is about Aksinya, a sorceress, who, to save her family from the Bolsheviks, called and contracted the demon, Asmodeus. Her family was murdered anyway, and she fled with the demon from Russia to Austria.

Father Dobrushin took Aksinya to dinner.  He told her he is willing to marry her to help her be rid of the demon.  Aksinya is speaking...

“If I marry you, I just want one thing.”

“What is that?” 

“You know how I desire.  You must swear to give me all the physical attention I want.”

He shook his head, “Is that all you really wish from me?”

“I always wanted to be held by my mother, she did not hold her children.  My adopted father was affectionate but my mother disapproved.  I have never had enough attention from anyone.”

“That’s all you want—attention.  Doesn’t love concern you at all?”

Aksinya lowered her eyes, “I know you have agape love for me or you wouldn’t have spent so much effort to help me. Ekaterina told me that the love of friends can grow by getting to know and spending time with each other.  I’m not certain we are friends yet either, but I would like to be your friend.”

“We are already friends.”

“Do you realize what could happen to you if what you propose doesn’t work?”

“I do realize the danger.”

She gave him a sly look, “How will you chase off the demon?  Do you have the special parts of a fish?”

“I have this,” Father Dobrushin stuck his hand in his pocket and pulled out a heart shaped necklace.  “Is this the surety the demon gave you?”

Aksinya’s mouth fell open.  She squeaked, “That is it.  Where did you find it?”

“It was inside your jewelry box just as you described it.”

“You bought it back?”

“I did indeed.  All the merchants to whom your goods were sold were listed in the court documents.  When I paid off the claims against you, I found the jeweler who bought your jewelry.  If you notice…” Father Dobrushin scooted his chair closer to her and Aksinya leaned her head toward his, “If you notice, there is the design of a fish on the pendant.”

My daughter tells me I shouldn't write so much about aggressive women characters.  I tell her I am writing about the unique and there really are people with personalities like Aksinya's.  Aksinya is a young woman who is driven by desire.  This isn't so unusual.  What is unusual is for a person to be so forthright in their desires--especially in this culture and time.

The reason Father Dobrushin knows about Aksinya's desires is because he was her confessor.  He is surprised that this is all she asks of him.  Aksinya then explains more about her life and what she wants.  We could have guessed this from her past. 

Father Dobrushin asks a question that is very important to him.  He obviously wishes Aksinya to love him.  He is more concerned with love than she is.  Her explanation is simple and very specific.  She is willing to get to know him.  Listen to his immediate response: “We are already friends.”  Aksinya is willing to be his wife and lover with the hope they will be friends.  Father Dobrushin wants her to love him.  He doesn't tell her, but isn't it obvious that he loves her.

The part about loving her is wrapped in the next few statements.  Aksinya asks: “Do you realize what could happen to you if what you propose doesn’t work?”  The answer is that the demon could kill him.  This was the danger for Ernst that Asmodeus explicitly told Aksinya at the climax of the novel.  The man who weds and tries to bed Aksinya will die.  The only reason Tobias was not murdered by Asmodeus was he had the help of an Angel who gave him part of a fish to burn in the marriage chamber.

Father Dobrushin has the surety the demon gave Aksinya.  It has on it (from the beginning of the novel) a fish.  Then we see another proof that Father Dobrushin loves her.  We know he paid off the merchants for her.  In addition, be bought back her surety.  We get the details about how he could find the necklace and the merchants.  Tomorrow, there is more to this very important conversation.

A New Novel, Part 181 You Will Never Have Me Now

For those who haven’t been following this blog, let me introduce it a little. I am currently blogging my 21st novel that has the working title Daemon. The novel is about Aksinya, a sorceress, who, to save her family from the Bolsheviks, called and contracted the demon, Asmodeus. Her family was murdered anyway, and she fled with the demon from Russia to Austria.



We discovered yesterday that Natalya and the demon conspired to have Aksinya make a great enchantment to change Natalya's features so she appeared like Aksinya.  Natalya then visited and seduced Ernst.  We also know that Natalya took the sorcery books from Ernst and brought them to Aksinya.  When Ernst came to get the answer to his proposal of marriage, he received much more than he expected...


Ernst pleaded, “I love you, Aksinya. I don’t love anyone else.”

“But you slept with her,” Aksinya thrust her finger at Natalya.

Ernst put his hands over his face, “I thought it was you. I only wanted you…”

Aksinya pushed him away, “You defiled her, and you defiled yourself. Do you think I would have slept so easily with you?”

Asmodeus voice was droll, “She would have.”

Aksinya barked at him, “Shut up, demon.” She whirled toward Ernst, “Get out, Herr von Taaffe. I don’t wish to see you again. I am not damaged goods, and I will not accept damaged goods.”

Asmodeus laughed again.

Aksinya ignored the demon. She scowled at Ernst, “Leave my house. You stain my honor by remaining here.”

Ernst ducked his head, “But, I didn’t know. I still love you. I want to marry you.”

“Do you think I could love you now? Do you think that after you took the virtue of my servant I could ever think of marrying you? I am not so low. You may have had her, but you will never have me now.”

Asmodeus gave a yawn, “The Lady Natalya had no virtue remaining to give. Others took it from her long before Herr von Taaffe. He was just one of many.”

Natalya bowed her head a little lower.

Aksinya stared at Natalya then jerked her eyes back to Ernst. She didn’t look in his eyes, “Herr von Taaffe, you disgrace my house. I already told you to leave.” She motioned violently toward him.

Ernst ducked his head and bowed, “I am sorry. I will leave. May I contact you later?”

Aksinya screamed at him, “Do not try to speak to me again. I will not entertain your letters or abide your presence again.”

“Very well. I do still love you. I am sorry.” He dropped to one knee.

Aksinya kicked at him and missed, “Take your apology and get out. Now!” She pulled back her hand and this time connected with the side of his face.

Ernst stood wide-eyed. He took one other glance at Aksinya then backed out of the door into the foyer. They heard the outer door open and close. The fire rose and fell among the coals.

There are small ironies throughout this scene.  Ernst still loves Aksinya.  He pleads with her.  Notice a small irony here.  Ernst was seduced.  This is obvious, but if he had managed to not fall to the temptation of Natalya and Asmodeus, he wouldn't be in the situation he is at this moment.  If Aksinya had not succumbed to luxuria and become drunk on Wednesday night, if sorcery were not her skill, none of this would be a problem.  Although the main actor in this entire problem is Natalya, Natalya was tempted only to help Aksinya.  We will find she did everything for Aksinya's sake.  Irony upon irony.  There is more.

Aksinya is a product of her culture as are Ernst and Natalya.  The act of sex before marriage is prohibited for good reason in this culture--it is too easy to become pregnant.  Sex outside of marriage is considered a great sin.  It leads to cultural and social ostracism.  It leads to religious ostracism.  The reaction of Aksinya is part of this, but there is much much more.  Aksinya feels that she was betrayed.  Although Natalya thought she was doing Aksinya a favor, that is not how she views it.

The demon adds fuel to the fire.  Aksinya would have slept with Ernst.  We know that, she knows that, perhaps Natalya realizes that--maybe that was part of her reasoning too.  Damaged goods refers to the culture's view of those who have had sex before marriage.  Aksinya turns all her anger on Ernst: "You stain my honor by remaining here.”  She calls Natalya her servant.  Aksinya has called Natalya her friend and confident--she rejected calling Natalya her servant before.

We know Ernst is at fault here, but there are various levels of guilt.  Aksinya has been pushed past the point of control and of reason.  The demon is an equal opportunity tempter and offender: “The Lady Natalya had no virtue remaining to give. Others took it from her long before Herr von Taaffe. He was just one of many.”  Poor Natalya acknowledges this.  She was seduced and used, abused by many men.  She only wanted to be free from the pain and suffering of her previous household.  That means nothing to Asmodeus.

Aksinya loves Natalya.  She doesn't love Ernst.  Ernst is easy for her to reject and remove.  Watch the techniques I use to escalate the situation.  Aksinya is screaming now.  She is gesticulating wildly.  When Ernst falls to a knee, Aksinya kicks at him.  Aksinya has been almost completely unphysical in the past.  She has not reacted with physical attacks before.  She is past the point of control.  She finally connects Ernst's face with her hand.  Ernst can't take anymore.  He isn't a coward, but he isn't good with confrontation--don't you remember the incident in front of the tavern.

The buildup in this scene is important--I worked on it for a long time to try to get the exact strength and measured increase.  It will likely take more work to make perfect.  The end detail relates to the demon and to the times: The fire rose and fell among the coals.  We will eventually see how important an incident this is, but for now, Ernst is gone and tomorrow, Aksinya turns her ire on Natalya.

A New Novel, Part 179 My Love Only Exceeds My Desire

For those who haven’t been following this blog, let me introduce it a little. I am currently blogging my 21st novel that has the working title Daemon. The novel is about Aksinya, a sorceress, who, to save her family from the Bolsheviks, called and contracted the demon, Asmodeus. Her family was murdered anyway, and she fled with the demon from Russia to Austria.


Ernst von Taaffe has come to Aksinya's house to hear her answer to his proposal of marriage.  The demon, Asmodeus, follows Ernst into the parlor.  Ernst's first action is to passionately kiss Aksinya, then he claims to know her answer already and he is here to take her home...

Aksinya stepped back and almost tripped over her chair, “I don’t have any idea what you are talking about, Ernst von Taaffe.”


Ernst continued to stare possessively at Aksinya. His eyes swept up and down her body in a very intimate glance.

Aksinya was suddenly filled with desire. She immediately pushed any such thoughts out of her mind. She glanced at the demon, then back at Ernst. Only she seemed to realize Asmodeus was in the room with them at all. Aksinya’s voice turned suddenly hard, “Sister Margarethe, leave us. Take the novices with you. I need to speak to Ernst privately.”

Natalya began to rise.

Aksinya didn’t turn, “Lady Natalya, you may remain. I am in great need of a chaperone.”

Ernst laughed, “In need of a chaperone? I think not, but dear lady, I will accede to your will.”

Sister Margarethe and the novice nuns reluctantly departed the room. Sister Margarethe halted a moment beside the door.

Aksinya raised her head, “Please close the door to the parlor, Sister Margarethe.”

Sister Margarethe nodded and slowly pulled it shut.

Aksinya stepped over to the door and made certain it was fully closed then she turned back toward Ernst, “What do you mean, sir by your statements? I did not send you a letter, and I did not attend you the other night.”

Ernst’s face fell for a moment, but he reached into his coat and pulled out a letter. He shook it open and handed it to Aksinya, “You sent this to me.”

Aksinya reached out and carefully took the letter without touching Ernst’s fingers. She scanned the letter. Then read it again, carefully.

Countess Aksinya Andreiovna Golitsyna
Sacré Coeur Straße
Wien, Austria

8 January 1919

My Dearest Ernst

I hope I proved my love to you Wednesday night. I couldn’t imagine a more suitable man to take into my arms and reveal my every desire and delight. My answer to you on Monday is yes and yes and yes. I am already yours. You have my heart and soul and body. Please don’t be late because my love for you only exceeds my desire.

I love you with my body and soul,

Aksinya

Aksinya was suddenly breathing hard, “I did not write this letter. After the opera, I did not spend Wednesday night with you.”

Asmodeus laughter filled the parlor.

I already revealed to you that this is the climax of the novel.  The buildup or rising action all led to this single time and place.  Ernst made a claim on Aksinya's heart, mind, and body.  He implied that she spent Wednesday night with him.  Suddenly, we realize, Ernst believes that Aksinya spent the night with him, and Aksinya has no idea what he is talking about.

Ernst glanced over Aksinya with desire.  It is a temptation Aksinya also felt.  She looks at the demon because this temptation obviously comes directly from him.  He is trying to influence Aksinya and Ernst.  Ernst doesn't have a clue.  Aksinya realizes what is going on and immediately clears her mind of these thoughts.  She sends the sisters out of the room.  Watch Natalya.  She wants to leave too.  Aksinya calls on Natalya to act as her chaperone.

Aksinya knows she needs a chaperone.  A woman who is married and with her husband or already known to cavort with men doesn't require a chaperone.  Thus Ernst's response.  He acts as though he is giving her a favor.  The sisters don't want to leave either.  They know something is very much amiss.  Sister Margarethe wants to protect Aksinya.

Aksinya shuts them all off and with that any chance of their help.  She doesn't realize that she is closing the trap around her.

When the sisters are out of earshot and the door is closed, Aksinya calmly confronts Ernst.  In response, Ernst produces a letter.  Do you remember the comments last week about Asmodeus intercepting the post.  It seems he was doing more than intercepting the post.

Aksinya takes the letter without touching Ernst.  I love letters because they tell you so much about the world around your characters.  They are perfect scene setters--even when you don't need it.  I tell you the approximate address of Aksinya's house, the date, the place (that is Wien, but you knew that).  You can tell everything from the address and the signature--you don't need the contents, but here you see that Aksinya (or someone) wrote to Ernst a very intimate and familiar letter.  What else could Ernst think?

Aksinya disclaims everything.  The demon laughs.  Tomorrow, Aksinya's handmaiden.

A New Novel, Part 178 Your Attentions the Other Evening

For those who haven’t been following this blog, let me introduce it a little. I am currently blogging my 21st novel that has the working title Daemon. The novel is about Aksinya, a sorceress, who, to save her family from the Bolsheviks, called and contracted the demon, Asmodeus. Her family was murdered anyway, and she fled with the demon from Russia to Austria.

The time has come for the climax of this novel.  We had a rousing beginning, a long series of rising action that foreshadowed and hinted toward this very moment.  Now, we are here.  I hope this is as much a surprise to you as it is to Aksinya...

Monday after school, Aksinya and Natalya awaited in the parlor for Herr von Taaffe’s arrival. A wood and coal fire warmed the room. Natalya sewed and Aksinya read a Russian novel. Sister Margarethe sat in a servant’s chair at the side of the room near the door to the hall. Aksinya kept glancing up from her book. She hadn’t turned a single page in an hour.


When they heard hooves outside, Sister Margarethe stood. The two novice nuns must have waited just outside the door, they rushed into the parlor.

Aksinya smiled. Her face filled with joy.

Natalya glanced at Aksinya then bent more diligently over her sewing.

When the bell rang, Sister Margarethe and the novice nuns ran into the foyer. Aksinya heard the door open and Sister Margarethe greet Ernst. She heard the rustle of Ernst’s great coat as they took it from him. In a few moments, Sister Margarethe led Herr Ernst von Taaffe into the room. Aksinya rose to greet him, and she almost fell backwards into her chair. Just behind Ernst stepped Asmodeus. The demon grinned at her, but he didn’t say anything. A whiff of sulfur followed him into the room. Natalya glanced up at Ernst and the demon. She colored, but immediately lowered her eyes back to her sewing.

Ernst’s face was radiant. He stepped to Aksinya and embraced her. His lips touched hers in a light but fervent caress. Aksinya returned his kiss for a moment, then thought better of her response and pushed him slightly away. Ernst didn’t seem put off at all. Sister Margarethe took a step forward as though she was about to intervene, but then she stepped back again.

Natalya stiffened.

Ernst pulled Aksinya closer, “Dearest Aksinya, I know your answer before you speak it, and I’m here to take you home with me.”

Sister Margarethe gave a gasp. The novice nuns gasped.

Aksinya pushed him back again, “My answer? You know it before I even speak it? You are a bit too forward and presumptuous, sir.”

“Today, I received your letter in response to mine, and the joy of my heart knows no bounds. But your attentions the other evening spoke more strongly than any letter or any words you might say.”

Aksinya’s voice raised, “My attentions?”

Ernst stared at her with a puzzled look, “Yes, your attentions.”

Asmodeus grinned.

The ladies form a sweet circle of friends and servants to the Grand Countess Aksinya.  This should be her greatest moment.  She is about to make her decision known to the famous and handsome, Ernst von Taaffe.  Aksinya has reached the pinnacle for an unmarried woman in this culture and society: she is sought after and she is treated like a true princess.  Who might imagine that in a single moment she should fall from that pinnacle.  Or that her fall should cause the fall of many, many, many others. 
 
So it begins, in this small circle that we know is a circle of secrets--the ladies await the arrival of Ernst.  The wealth of Aksinya's household is indicated by the coal and the wood in her fireplace.  Natalya sews.  Aksinya reads or tries to read.  Sister Margarethe looks after them both.  Aksinya is excited--notice, I don't tell you that she is excited, I show you--she hasn't turned a single page in an hour.
 
What do you think the answer Aksinya will make to Ernst?  It should be obvious.  The moment they hear Ernst's arrival, everyone begins to act.  Sister Margarethe and the novice nuns move to greet Ernst.  Aksinya's face is filled with joy.  Watch Natalya--what's with Natalya?

We hear the sounds as the Sisters greet Ernst--the excitement is building.  These are advanced writing techniques to allow you to experience the moment, the excitement.  You hear the entry and movement with the expectation of Aksinya and the ladies.  You experience with Aksinya, your desire, Ernst von Taaffe will soon be here.

Aksinya rose to greet Ernst.  This is a great boon.  The Countess rises for her love (remember how she treated him before), but just behind Ernst, comes Asmodeus!  The demon doesn't speak.  Why could he be here.  Watch Natalya, something is up.

Ernst's appearance is like Aksinya's--he is full of joy.  He goes directly to Aksinya and kisses her.  This is a huge cultural issue.  Only a husband would kiss a woman like this--and maybe not a husband--a lover and not a discrete one.  Ernst is intoxicated with love.  Aksinya is intoxicated with desire.

Aksinya realizes she has made a mistake.  She pushed Ernst away, but it is too late.  Sister Margarethe has already seen it.  The novice sisters have already seen it.  Everyone knows her answer--it has to be, yes.  Ernst's actions are certainly something Aksinya didn't expect.  Natalya's reaction was to stiffen--what does she know?

Ernst brings more mystery into the situation.  He pulls her closer, possessively: “Dearest Aksinya, I know your answer before you speak it, and I’m here to take you home with me.”  You can't misunderstand this statement.  Even if you don't understand the culture, you can't misunderstand Ernst's statement.  The response of the nuns should tell you--they gasp.  Ernst is here to take Aksinya to his house where they will live together.  He knows her answer already--how could that be?

Aksinya is getting angry now.  No one knows her mind before she speaks it.  She uses very strong language for the times.  She calls Ernst forward and presumptuous, which he is.  Ernst gives a reason for his actions--he received a letter, oops.  Remember the post?  Then we get the coupe de gras: "But your attentions the other evening spoke more strongly than any letter or any words you might say.”

Your attentions the other evening?  Aksinya knows nothing about this.  Can you guess what attentions means in this culture.  The demon grins.  Tomorrow, we see more about these attentions.

A New Novel, Part 176 You Would Keep My Secrets, Wouldn't You?

For those who haven’t been following this blog, let me introduce it a little. I am currently blogging my 21st novel that has the working title Daemon. The novel is about Aksinya, a sorceress, who, to save her family from the Bolsheviks, called and contracted the demon, Asmodeus. Her family was murdered anyway, and she fled with the demon from Russia to Austria.

The question of the bills and the post came up yesterday.  Aksinya knows something is up about them both, but she is of no mind to worry about them.  She has other concerns more pressing.  She seeks luxuria to forget these pressing issues.  Sister Margarethe now brings up the issue that plagues Aksinya...


Natalya turned Aksinya a strange look that Sister Margarethe and Aksinya both did not see.


Sister Margarethe shifted the cloaks in her arms, “Have you decided what you are going to answer Herr von Taaffe on Monday?”

Natalya cocked her ears.

“I have considered Herr von Taaffe’s proposal very carefully. I think it would be unfair to the gentleman if I told anyone before him.”

“He is a very fine young man. You could not do much better than to accept his proposal. I would hope that I might continue to serve you afterward.”

“Thank you, Sister Margarethe that is very kind of you. I will take your request into consideration. I don’t expect to leave this house or the school for a while even if my decision is to join myself with his household.”

Sister Margarethe seemed relieved, “Then you anticipate a long engagement?”

“I take everything under advisement depending on my answer to the gentleman. I enjoy his company. Perhaps I shall tell him I would like more time to consider his offer, and perhaps I will request a longer time to get to know him. Then again,” Aksinya’s eyes sparkled, “perhaps I shall accept him and his offer and entertain him here.”

Natalya blushed.

Sister Margarethe put her hand over her mouth, “Surely, you would not. The Reverend Mother would not allow such a thing.”

“You have kept my other secrets well, Sister Margarethe. Why should you not keep another one? What the Reverend Mother doesn’t know will not burden her or me.”

“But such a thing…and right across from Sacré Coeur. You wouldn’t be able to keep something like that a secret for very long.”

Aksinya shrugged, “I did not say what I would do, yet. I simply suggested that as a possibility. You would keep my secrets, wouldn’t you, Sister Margarethe?”

Sister Margarethe raised her eyes, “Yes. Yes, you know I would.”

“Very good. Then whatever decision I make, I shall feel comfortable that my interests are guarded by those who serve me.” Aksinya turned toward Natalya, “Isn’t that so, Nata?”

Natalya glanced down, “Y…yes, Countess.”

They heard horses’ hooves on the cobblestones outside and Aksinya stood, “My cloak, please.”

Sister Margarethe moved a little too quickly. She fumbled a little and began to place the mink cloak over Aksinya’s shoulders. Natalya intercepted her and took the heavy cloak from her. She put it over Aksinya’s shoulders herself and lingered a moment too long when she tied it at Aksinya’s neck. She put her face discretely close to the side and took a deep breath.

Sister Margarethe placed the other cloak around Natalya’s shoulders. Then she answered the door.

The driver helped Aksinya and Natalya into the coupe, and the carriage took off with only a slight lurch. Sister Margarethe watched the carriage until it was out of sight.

You get a whole lot in a very tight form.  This is a scene truly driven by conversation.  The information that flows from the characters involved is very large.  I give you the last paragraph from yesterday because I don't want you to forget it.  It flows into the next piece of conversation.  Natalya is guilty of something.  Do you remember Aksinya's conversation with Natalya concerning secrets before.  Aksinya's admonition was: don't keep any secrets from me. Natalya is keeping secrets.  She knows something about Ernst.  She knows something about the demon.  She knows something about Sister Margarethe.  There are deep secrets circling Aksinya that she does not begin to understand.

Sister Margarethe brings up the one question Aksinya has not wished to answer, but you know it is the question that burdened her--that is until she received the new book of sorcery.  Watch the use of analogy.  Sister Margarethe shifted the cloaks in her arms.  This indicates she is changing the topic of conversation.  The cloaks represent Aksinya and Natalya, but you knew that.  That is why Sister Margarethe holds them so carefully.  She cares for both of them.  Then the Sister asks the bombshell question:  “Have you decided what you are going to answer Herr von Taaffe on Monday?”

Natalya wants to know too.  Remember Natalya's confession to the sleeping Aksinya.  Remember her confession to the drunken Aksinya.  Natalya does not want Aksinya to chose Ernst and perhaps any man.  Natalya has a deep seated mistrust for men.  She was used by men.

Aksinya's answer does not answer the question.  Her response is gentle and proper.  Then Sister Margarethe tells us and Aksinya what has bothered her all along: "I would hope that I might continue to serve you afterward.”  She wants Aksinya to accept Ernst's proposal, but she wants to continue to serve her.

Aksinya's answer begins gentle and refined.  Aksinya isn't interested in Ernst.  She wants her house and to continue in the school.  She expects to have these things (luxuria) even if engaged and even, we find, when married.  Sister Margarethe is relieved and makes a logical deduction--a long engagement.  This is not what Aksinya has in mind at all.  Aksinya wants luxuria.  She wants everything she can get from Ernst and to have everything as it is now.  Her statement that she would entertain Ernst in her own house is cultural speak at the times that she would let him stay over with her--the obvious conclusion is for sex.  This is why Natalya blushes and Sister Margarethe reacts as she does.  Notice, that I don't have to tell you all about the culture--I let you see the culture first hand through these women and their reactions. 

The conversation turns toward secrets.  This brings up in our minds how much does Sister Margarethe know.  If you will remember from the time of the great enchantment, Sister Margarethe has been keeping some very great secrets about Aksinya and Aksinya's actions.  The Sister knows that Aksinya is a sorceress.  Sister Margarethe's love for Aksinya prevents her from even correcting her young charge.  Aksinya is unkind enough to bring this up.  Having Ernst over to entertain Aksinya is just another secret in Aksinya's household. 

Sister Margarethe warns Aksinya, but Aksinya has given herself over completely to her desire and temptation.  That is why her response.  She takes a promise from Sister Margarethe.  It is a promise that the Sister should not give and one Aksinya should not request.  Aksinya is dragging down those around her.  She is like the demon.  She has become just like the demon in this.  Look at the Sister's response: Sister Margarethe raised her eyes, “Yes. Yes, you know I would.”  She raises her eyes.  She is proud to keep Aksinya's secrets.  If you remember Sister Margarethe is infatuated with Aksinya.  She loves Aksinya without desire.

Aksinya then turns to Natalya.  She requires a promise from Natalya.  We guess that Natalya is lying.  She is keeping secrets for Aksinya, but she is also keeping secrets from Aksinya.  The coupe arrives just in time.  Sister Margarethe moves to place Aksinya's cloak over her shoulders, but remember this is the privilege of Natalya.  Natalya will not give her place over to anyone.  In this group, Aksinya is the idol of worship and these two worship her, but it is a perverted idol and a perverted worship.

Natalya goes through the liturgy of her worship.  She breaths in the incense of Aksinya.  Do you see, the incense of the demon is sulphur and a stink.  The incense of Aksinya is like a breath of life for Natalya.  Sister Margarethe is relegated to serving Natalya.  We see Sister Margarethe's dedication.  She watches the carriage until it is out of sight.  Tomorrow, Aunt Brunhilda.

A New Novel, Part 167 That is My Own Business

For those who haven’t been following this blog, let me introduce it a little. I am currently blogging my 21st novel that has the working title Daemon. The novel is about Aksinya, a sorceress, who, to save her family from the Bolsheviks, called and contracted the demon, Asmodeus. Her family was murdered anyway, and she fled with the demon from Russia to Austria.


Aksinya and Natalya return to Wien and Sacré Coeur.  Aksinya can't abide another moment with her aunt--not after Ernst proposed to her, and she hasn't made a decision about it...


Saturday and Sunday went well. Ernst came on Sunday to escort Aksinya and Natalya to the Orthodox Ecclesia that was close to Sacré Coeur. The crucifix at Aksinya’s breast burned the entire time. Father Dobrushin watched her with an odd look in his eyes. Aksinya became ill at communion, but she didn’t lose her breakfast. Natalya helped her back to her seat and wouldn’t let Ernst near her the entire time.



When Aksinya and Natalya entered Sacré Coeur on Monday morning, every eye in the school followed her. At chapel, the girls and every sister watched her carefully. Aksinya ignored them all. She had to leave before communion, but the tea Natalya made for her between chapel and the first class settled her stomach.

The moment Aksinya and Natalya entered their German classroom, Anna Pfaff followed by the rest of the girls in the class surrounded her, “Countess, we heard that Herr von Taaffe has asked your hand in marriage, is it true?”

Behind them, Sister Margarethe’s face fell. She mumbled, “I didn’t know.”

Aksinya began to push her way past Fraulein Pfaff to her seat, but she suddenly thought better of that, “Where did you hear such a thing?”

“The rumor is all over the school. Please tell us. It is so exciting…”

Aksinya glared, and the girls took a step back.

Anna continued with a trembling stutter, “We are all so happy for you—that is if it is true.”

“I don’t like my personal business shared about, but I will tell you, it is true. At Graf von Taaffe’s New Year’s party, his son, Ernst, proposed to me.”

Anna put her hands together, “What is your answer to him?”

Aksinya growled, “That is definitely my own business. I have not made my decision.”

Natalya grimaced, “She is to give her answer to him next Monday.”

Aksinya turned Natalya an angry look, “Lady Natalya, please don’t share such personal information without my approval.”

Natalya cringed, and dropped her eyes.

Anna turned toward Natalya, “Then Lady Natalya, has the Countess shared her decision with you?”

Natalya shook her head.

Sister Margarethe moved a step toward the girls, and stated in a distraught tone, “It is past time to start class. Please find your seats—immediately.”

The girls slowly broke up and went reluctantly to their desks.

Aksinya stomped to her seat and flopped into it. She wouldn’t speak to Natalya or to Sister Margarethe the entire class.

When we left them, everyone is unhappy.  There is the expectation of happiness, but everyone's happiness relies on Aksinya.  It isn't just her answer--it is Aksinya herself.  Aksinya's answer to Ernst's proposal is like the middle of an endless line of dominos.  If her answer falls one way, so will the dominos.  If her answer falls the other way...  She doesn't have the option to not make a decision.  And look at what depends on her decision.  Ernst and his father's relationship.  Ernst's future in his father's business.  The Bockmann's future influence in Wien.  The freindship of the Bockmanns and the von Taaffes.  Natalya's relationship with Aksinya, and, as we shall see, with others.  However, these are all very simplistic concerns compared to the real ones that will shortly manifest themsleves, and these don't depend on Aksinya's decision about the proposal at all.
 
Ernst is a gentleman.  He takes Aksinya and Natalay to their Orthodox Church.  Note Father Dobrushin--I don't want to let you forget about him.  Notice that the balance of power between Aksinya, Natalya, and Ernst has changed slightly.  The crucifix burns Aksinya while she is in the Ecclesia--remember, this is an indicator of her spiritual problems.
 
The return to Sacré Coeur brings Aksinya unanticipated attention.  In the community of the wealthy and privilaged of Wien, this gossip about Aksinya is important and exciting.  It was likely the talk of the weekend.  Our little romantic, Anna Pfaff wants to know all about it.  She thinks this is a safe question.  Normally, this would be a great question for any woman, but Aksinya isn't any person.  This decision is difficult for her.  She isn't happy about it or the attention.   
 
Look at Sister Margarethe's reaction.  She is disappointed for more than one reason.  The first hint I give you is that she is unhappy because she didn't know.  She should have known before any of her students--doesn't she live with and act as a servant for Aksinya?
 
Aksinya's first reaction is to ignore Anna, but Aksinya isn't in the mood to ignore anything.  As Anna tells her, it is a rumor.  To her and the others, this is an innocent question.  Aksinya can just confirm or deny.  Aksinya has a different view.  Can't you imagine her response--a "glare."  It is so great a "glare," it makes the other girls step back.  Still, Anna is intimidated, but her curiousity is greater than her intimidation.  She tries to make nice.
 
We could have guessed Aksinya's answer--she is a private person, but she still tells them that Ernst proposed.  Anna's reaction is joy; Aksinya growls.  She drops a bomb:  "I have not made my decision.”
 
The interjection of Natalya amazes us.  This is new for Natalya.  Usually, Natalya only takes this role when Aksinya cannot.  The power has changed.  Natalya is undercutting Aksinya.  She likely thinks she is doing it for Aksinya's own good.  Natalya excites Aksinya's anger.  This may be the first time Aksinya has been mad at Natalya.  Anna bravely asks Natalya--this should show that even Anna detects the change in power.  In this moment, Natalya has taken some degree of control from Aksinya.  She even answers Anna's question with the shake of her head.

Then we see the other reason for Sister Margarethe's distress--she is worried about losing Aksinya.  The implication is that if Aksinya is married, she won't be in school and Sister Margarethe won't be able to take care of her.  Aksinya has lost her power and control.  The girls are not pushed away by Aksinya's growls or glares but by Sister Margarethe's admonision.

Aksinya realizes she has lost control--she won't speak to either of her most stalwart defenders.  The world is changing for Aksinya and the world suddenly depends on Aksinya.  Tomorrow, at the opera with Ernst.

A New Novel, Part 166 Let Me Contemplate Herr von Taaffe's Proposal

For those who haven’t been following this blog, let me introduce it a little. I am currently blogging my 21st novel that has the working title Daemon. The novel is about Aksinya, a sorceress, who, to save her family from the Bolsheviks, called and contracted the demon, Asmodeus. Her family was murdered anyway, and she fled with the demon from Russia to Austria.



Ernst proposed to Aksinya during the New Years.  She has not made a decision and will not announce any decision until the next Monday.  She is returning with Natalya and the Bockmanns to Wein...

During the entire return trip, Aunt Brunhilda tried to get Aksinya to talk about Ernst and his proposal, but Aksinya would not say a word. She slouched in the corner of the coupe and read her German novel. As they neared the city, Aksinya sat up, “Aunt Brunhilda, Uncle, I would like to return to my house tonight. Please, take us there.”


“Tonight,” Aunt Brunhilda complained, “But we have dinner waiting.”

“I’ve eaten and drunk too much as it is these last few days. I would like to return to my house. I shall take my dinner at Sacré Coeur, that is, if I feel dinner is necessary.”

“Really, Countess.”

“I would like time to privately contemplate Herr von Taaffe’s proposal.”

“Oh, I see,” Aunt Brunhilda raised her head and gave a thoughtful look. “I certainly think that is a good idea. Would you like you to discuss your decision with us…?”

Aksinya turned her head toward the door. She would not respond to a single question her aunt asked after that. Eventually, Aunt Brunhilda gave up.

The Freiherr and Freifrau let Aksinya and Natalya off in front of the house across from Sacré Coeur. Sister Margarethe and the two novice sisters greeted them at the door. Aksinya and Natalya ate a light supper in Aksinya’s sitting room and had a late tea. They both studied until it was time for bed.

Aksinya may be the most private persons in her world.  She is secretive.  She is private.  She doesn't share with anyone, anything--except Natalya (and then when she is drunk).  She will not talk to her aunt about Ernst or his proposal.  We know that Aksinya is not in love with Ernst.  Perhaps she is in lust or at least has some desire for him, but even that is in question.
 
Aksinya doesn't want to be badgered anymore and she tells her aunt and uncle to take her home.  Aksinya and her aunt share some conversation, but Aksinya clinches her argument when she tells her aunt that she would like to privately contemplate Ernst's proposal.  This gets an immediate thumbs up.
 
We have a short transition, and they both prepare for the next school day.  They are preparing for their first day of return to school after the holidays.  So we are none the wiser about Aksinya's thoughts and her intentions.  She isn't sharing with anyone, and that means us too.  This is the concept of not telling your readers anything more than your characters already know or learn.
 
The other big question is about Natalya.  I want to point out some important concepts in character development.  Each of the main characters in the novel have been revealed significantly through the work.  I don't mean that their characters or personalities were hidden, but rather that the novel has been a constant revelation of their characters.  Many writers give you a simple introduction to a character and that's it.  You can see my emphasis is on the development of the characters and your knowledge of them.  You learn about them gradually, but yet you know them from the beginning.  They don't change, but your knowledge of them improves.  This is the way real life is. You are introduced to a person, but only through conversation and observation do you really come to understand them--or not.  Natalya's motivations are critical to this novel.  You will soon see how important they are and how they play out.  Tomorrow, back to school.

A New Novel, Part 160 I'm Drunk

For those who haven’t been following this blog, let me introduce it a little. I am currently blogging my 21st novel that has the working title Daemon. The novel is about Aksinya, a sorceress, who, to save her family from the Bolsheviks, called and contracted the demon, Asmodeus. Her family was murdered anyway, and she fled with the demon from Russia to Austria.



Ernst von Taaffe asked Aksinya to marry him--she didn't answer him right away.  Natalya, Aksinya's chaperone, drags her back to the ballroom and the party...

They both returned to the ballroom. Until they entered the rooms Graf von Taaffe’s servants provided them, Natalya did not speak to Aksinya again that evening. She stuck close to Aksinya for the rest of the event. After Ernst rejoined the party, he did not let Aksinya out of his sight. Natalya watched Ernst with frosty eyes.

Aksinya sat beside the large fireplace closest to the dining room and outside the draft that blew constantly through the long room. She drank and stewed. She would not engage anyone in conversation for very long, but that didn’t matter, the party was winding down and the couples were primarily interested in dancing.

Near midnight, Graf von Taaffe stepped to Aksinya’s side, “Countess, would you honor me with this dance?”

“Why not?” Aksinya’s words were only a little slurred. Her Russian accent cut through the German. Aksinya had feigned weariness to fend off the other invitations she received that evening. She wished Ernst would ask her to dance again. She knew she could not beg off this offer from her host. She stood a little shakily.

The Graf took her hand in his and placed his arm around her back. He led her into the waltz, “I didn’t notice your Russian accent before, Countess.”

Aksinya tried unsuccessfully to pronounce her German words as she usually did, “I was not drunk before.”

“Drunk? You seem very steady on your feet for being drunk.”

“I’m used to it. I’m sorry, I should have said, I had drunk too much wine before and not that I was drunk.”

The Graf smiled, “I have happy news for you. I hoped you had as happy news for me.”

“I’m drunk.”

His smile slipped a little, “Yes, I understand.  I didn't see the ring on your finger.  Then your answer to my son was not an affirmative?”

“I have not given him my answer yet.”

Aksinya and Natalya return to the ballroom.  Natalya is obviously very angry.  We are not certain what or who her anger is directed toward.  There is a hint, Natalya watched Ernst with frosty eyes.  Ernst has made Natalya angry, but she seemed angry at Aksinya before.  Just what is bothering her...we shall see eventually.
 
Aksinya finds a warm place.  She is given the most comfortable space in the room.  This was likely the place reserved for the lady of the house.  She drank and stewed.  Aksinya isn't happy either.  So, Ernst isn't happy. Natalya isn't happy.  Aksinya isn't happy.  Is anyone happy?  Aksinya certainly isn't a very pleasant guest either, but we didn't expect her to be--she is a countess.
 
Fortunately, the Graf comes to rescue Aksinya; he asks her to dance.  Aksinya is drunk.  She is so drunk she can't pronounce her German properly.  We find that she wanted to dance with Ernst again, but Ernst was put off by Natalya--not Aksinya.  Aksinya could not turn down an invitation to dance from her host.  She is shaky--she's drunk.
 
The Graf apparently doesn't notice Aksinya is drunk.  His first words: “I didn’t notice your Russian accent before.”  Can you imagine this.  She tries to speak properly.  We aren't certain of her success, but she is out drunk and truth telling Aksinya by this point.  The Graf can't believe she is drunk.  He doesn't seem surprised or upset.  Aksinya makes the situation worse from one standpoint.  Only those who drink a lot can handle alcohol so well.  She tries to correct herself, but she isn't very successful. 
 
The Graf gets to his point: “I have happy news for you. I hoped you had as happy news for me.”  As to the Graf's news, you might guess it, we shall see it tomorrow.  You know the news he wishes to hear from Aksinya.  Her answer is perfect in perspective: “I’m drunk.”   The reason she is drunk, she implies, is the reason she can't give the Graf a happy answer.  The happy answer he expected, of course, was the Aksinya had accepted the ring and Ernst's proposal. 
 
This whole party was put together by the Graf so Ernst could propose.  He brought together his most important friends and retainers just for this very purpose.  Now, the Graf isn't happy either.  But there is still hope--Aksinya hasn't given her answer yet.  Tomorrow, the Graf's happy news.

A New Novel, Part 159 Kiss Me Again

For those who haven’t been following this blog, let me introduce it a little. I am currently blogging my 21st novel that has the working title Daemon. The novel is about Aksinya, a sorceress, who, to save her family from the Bolsheviks, called and contracted the demon, Asmodeus. Her family was murdered anyway, and she fled with the demon from Russia to Austria.



Ernst kissed Aksinya and confessed his love.  He wants to give her an engagement ring and for her to accept his proposal of marriage.  Aksinya doesn't know what to answer him.  She wants to know if Asmodeus has been encouraging Ernst...


Aksinya stared out into the darkness and whispered, “This is a temptation to me. It is surely a temptation.” She spoke more loudly, “Did Anatov Aznabaev put you up to this?”


“Your courtier? I haven’t seen him in a long time.”

“Have you been engaging in sorcery?”

Ernst put up his hand, “Not since I met you. I realized then, I could not achieve any of it. I told you already, I don’t have the skills or the power to do it. I want to give you this ring.”

Aksinya raised her eyes to his, “I’m not sure of what I will answer to you. I’m not certain if I love you.”

“Isn’t it enough if I love you? I swear I will give you everything in my power.”

Aksinya cried, “Do not swear. Do not swear anything to me. Don’t use those words around me. Don’t you realize how dangerous that is?”

“Dangerous to swear what I am truly willing to do? I do swear it. I swear to Aksinya that I love her, will do anything I can for her, and will marry her.”

Aksinya pressed her hands over her ears, “Don’t swear. It is enough to say you will do it, but do not swear it.”

“Will you accept my ring?”

“I cannot—not yet.”

“Will you accept my love?”

“I must think on this—it is too difficult for me to decide right now. My mind is in turmoil.”

“Will you allow me to continue to court you?”

Aksinya sighed, “Will you kiss me again?”

“I will, but only if the Lady Natalya will not scream.”

Aksinya turned a little toward Natalya, “Lady Natalya, I wish to allow Ernst to kiss me again. Will you please let him?”

“Kiss him? You should hit him.”

“I wish to kiss him. Please allow me. I shall not ask for more than one tonight, but I would like to kiss him once more.”

Natalya’s anger was evident on her face, “I shall turn around for ten seconds. By the time I have counted to ten, I expect you to be at my side. If you are not, I shall certainly yell for your aunt and uncle.”

“Thank you, Lady Natalya.” Aksinya didn’t wait to see if Natalya turned, she ran to Ernst and put her arms around his neck. She clumsily brought her lips to his and lingered there in a measured kiss. He put his arms around her and held her tightly. They parted at eight seconds and Aksinya ran to Natalya’s side. Natalya noted Aksinya beside her with an impatient nod and began walking. Aksinya glanced back at Ernst. His eyes lingered on her. They did not leave her the entire time until she lost sight of him when she exited the parlor.

The most important question for Aksinya is the part Asmodeus has played in Ernst's confession and proposal.  You know why this is so important to her.  She realizes that Asmodeus has been setting her up to accomplish evil--that is his purpose.  In every case, in every thing that has happened since Aksinya called the demon, he has tempted or manipulated her to evil.  Even when she succeeded in thwarting him, Aksinya still ended up doing the demon's ultimate will.  She hopes this is not the case now.  We know how this situation must work out, but we are waiting for the other shoe to drop.  We hope Aksinya can find happiness with Ernst.  We hope everything can work out well for her and for him.  We can hope...
 
Aksinya knows.  She tells us and herself, this is a temptation.  Still, she is reassured by Ernst's reply--he hasn't seen Asmodeus in a while.  She asks about sorcery--he hasn't been attempting it.  His reaction to a person who has mastered such a skill is reasonable--he has given it up.  He still wants to give (tempt) her with the ring.
 
Aksinya can only tell the truth at this moment.  There is no reason for her to lie.  She isn't certain if she loves Ernst.  Ernst is lovestruck.  His answer is the one sided loves eternal answer--isn't it enough that I love you.  He then swears.  That is a mistake.  Aksinya tries to prevent him from continuing, but Ernst doesn't understand.  He swears to her.  Do you remember, the demon always attempts to illicit a promise.  To swear is to make a contract.  That would be okay with anyone else in the world, but around Aksinya, spiritual forces battle (or perhaps the forces of evil dominate).  To swear around Aksinya is tantamount to a red flag in front of a bull.  Remember each of the promises made in this novel.  Remember everything that was sworn.  They will not stand--they cannot stand.
 
Aksinya realizes all this, but she won't give up hope.  She won't give up hope because she is tempted and she has great desire.  She wants Ernst to love her and to give her luxuria.  She really would like to love someone.  She would like to indulge her desires.  But...she is afraid to do any of that because she knows the demon is behind everything.  Thus, her answer: “Will you kiss me again?”  Aksinya wants to indulge in her desire.  She thinks she can get away with this luxuria, with this small indulgence.
 
Aksinya asks Natalya if she may kiss Ernst again.  Listen to Natalya's response.  The power is in the hands of Natalya now.  For some reason, the control has shifted to Natalya, and her animosity is obvious.  We would have expected Natalya to applaud Aksinya's courting, but at this moment, for some reason, Natalya is bothered by it.  In spite of her discomfort and her anger, Natalya allows Aksinya to indulge herself in this temptation.
 
Aksinya kisses Ernst, and she and Natalya exit the parlor together.  The lovelorn Ernst watches Aksinya until she is out of sight.  Tomorrow, the Graf gets involved.

A New Novel, Part 42 The Proposal Part 2

We saw the proposal--Aksinya's uncle and aunt want her to attend the gymnasium for girls, Sacré Coeur.  This idea came from Asmodeus--it was likely a suggestion in the telegram.  Asmodeus chose this aunt and uncle, this school, this city for exactly his own purpose.  I haven't shown you that purpose yet, but I did give a big hint.  I revealed to you that the demon would have more scope to torture Aksinya in the West than in Russia.

Aunt Brunhilda clasped Aksinya’s left hand with both of hers. “We wish to enroll you in my old school, Sacré Coeur. It is a school, a gymnasium, for girls here in Wien. The church runs it, and it is connected with a convent of the same name. I know it is something you have never experienced before, but I believe you will blossom in it.”


Aksinya stared at her aunt. Then she turned her stare at the demon. Asmodeus’ face was covered with a scowl. He stood, “Freiherr, I’m not sure the Countess should be placed in this kind of environment. She is a very sensitive young woman who is not used to being among so many people.”

The Freiherr immediately warmed to his argument, “The Countess would have her lady-in-waiting to take care of her. She would be boarded in the style of a princess. She would possess the highest rank of anyone in Sacré Coeur.”

The demon didn’t back down, “But the Countess isn’t used to being away from her family.“

Aunt Brunhilda clasped Aksinya’s fingers a little tighter, “We are her family now. She may come stay with us on the weekends. She will certainly go to church with us and dine with us, and she may bring as many of her friends as she likes for the weekend.”

Asmodeus straightened, “Is all this certain?”

The Freiherr stuck out his chest, “It is a surety and a promise.”

“Do you swear?”

Baronet Herman Bockmann’s eyebrows rose, “Yes, I guess. I do swear.”

Asmodeus bowed, “Good. Then the Countess shall attend Sacré Coeur. Should we visit the school tomorrow?”

Aksinya’s brows lowered, “Don’t I have a say?”

Her aunt and uncle stared at her.

Asmodeus' look was dangerous, “Yes, Countess, of course you have a say.” The demon’s voice dripped with menace, “What do you wish? It is your choice, after all.” He glared at her.

Aksinya returned his gaze. Then after a moment, she lowered her head, “I shall go to Sacré Coeur on a trial basis. If I am not happy there, I shall not continue.“

Aunt Brunhilda shook Aksinya’s hand, “What a wonderful answer.”

Her uncle lit another cigarette, “Yes, very wise. It shall be on a trial basis. We shall see how all of us like it. I would rather have you here all the time with us, Countess, but I am willing to give you up during the week for your own improvement and education.”

Aksinya mumbled under her breath then she glanced up, “I will attend on a trial basis only if my lady-in-waiting may attend too.” Aksinya continued before anyone could respond, “The Lady Natalya is incredibly bright and educated. She would succeed very well in such an environment.”

The Freiherr glanced at Natalya then back at Aksinya, “Certainly, I don’t see any reason why the Lady Natalya cannot attend with you. Her primary job must be your care, but she may attend and study with you.”

Aksinya bowed her head, “Thank you.”

“You are very welcome,” Aunt Brunhilda smiled and stood. Now, let us ladies retire to my sitting room where I will inform you both all about Sacré Coeur. ”

Reluctantly Aksinya stood. Natalya bounced up. They followed Aunt Brunhilda to the second floor and her sitting room.

The demon is a consumate actor.  Look at his response.  He plays the "devil's advocate" and gives a counter arguement.  His focus isn't the arguement, it is to get Freiherr Bockmann to swear.  You can imagine why this is so important to a demon.  It means there is a resolve to act.  It means there is a contract.   When and if (it will be when) Aksinya can no longer continue at the school, Freiherr Bockmann will be forced to break his promise (contract).  This is the way with all good, even if we swear to achieve it, we make it all wrong when we cannot achieve what we have agreed to do.
 
Then Aksinya takes matters into her own hands for just a singular moment.  She defies the demon.  She matches his gaze, but can't hold it.  She knows she wants to go to the school.  So does the demon.  Aksinya attaches two criteria to the proposal: it is a trial and Natalya must attend.  You can see the reaction of both.  Aksinya is reluctant--she lost out, but achieved what she wanted.  Still she worries about the ramifications of the demon's choice.  Natalya bounces up--her mistress thought of her and gave her a great gift.  That is the end of chapter 5.  I need to get writing.  I just finished the first run through of chapter 11 and started chapter 12.